Ayden,
About 7 months ago, on a sunny chilled November morning, I didn't realize as I woke up that I'd be embracing one of the best days of my life. You see, Daddy and I had been praying for YOU and wanting you for a while. We were running out of hope, but not giving up on faith. Something inside of me told me to just see if "you" could be. Those three little letters "yes" instantly changed mine and your dad's life infinitely for the best forever. Fast forward seven months, many many sick moments, thousands of blood draws, many worried "mommy" moments about you, millions of tears of joy (and hormones) and here we are, just over two months from meeting you and seeing your precious face, 10 fingers and tiny toes for the very first time. If I could do this pregnancy all over again, just for you, I would in a heartbeat, even though some say it hasn't been an easy road. It is a daily reminder that you are growing inside of me and there is life and a miracle to be forever grateful for. As you continue to grow healthy and strong, I have so many prayers for you, my son. I pray that you are and will continue to be healthy, first and foremost. I pray that your heart is filled with infinite joy and happiness as you go through childhood and your life. I pray that you learn at a young age what is right and wrong and everything that you do and say matters. I pray that you realize all people are people that should be treated with humble grace. I pray that you always see the good in people, but you aren't naive to realize danger does exist in the world. I pray that from an early age, you learn to love God and always follow his path in your life no matter how distant it seems. I pray as you get older that you carry the " southern gentleman" title and you always treat girls with dignity and grace. I pray that your dad and I are able to model the Christian marriage and relationship that you will yearn to have one day. I pray that you will be strong willed and determined, but never too stubborn to admit when you're wrong. I pray that you have confidence to know that you are capable of doing whatever it is you want to do, whether that be a sport, a hobby, a certain career in the future, or whatever else you would like to do. Most of all, I pray that you know from the moment you are born on, that you are always loved and cherished. There will never be a day in your life that you have to questioned if you are loved. You, our son, are saved from that pain that so many children face. When you keep me up at night, crying, you are loved and I'm reminded just how blessed I am to have someone to stay up for. When you make your first mistake or get in trouble for the first time, you are loved. You will of course be disciplined, but in grace, and I'll be reminded how grateful I am to have a son that's not perfect but admits to his mistakes. When you get your feelings hurt by someone in this world for the first time, you will always know your momma's arms are open to love you and hug you until it's all better and I will be reminded that even though it breaks my heart to see you upset, that you will never feel sadness for too long, because you have a refuge and safe haven in your parents and family. When you get sick for the first time, you will always feel loved and taken care of and will know that we will always take care of you no matter how contagious or yucky you may be. Mommy will even hug you and comfort you even though she hates vomit. When you're faced with a problem for the first time, you will always feel loved and know that you can come to me and your dad, regardless of how big or small that problem is. There is nothing in this world that we can't get through together and we will be there to guide you every step of the way. More than anything, I hope you will always know that unconditional love that your parents have for you will carry you through. Ayden Reed, I can't express to you how much I already love you. Every kick, move, and hiccup you do reminds me that you are a precious life that is and should be celebrated every single day. I can not wait to meet you soon and celebrate every moment, every holiday, and everyday life with you oh so soon. Thank you for making me a mommy, there is nothing I'd rather be.
Love always,
Your momma
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